Blogging Through My Issues: prayers

My Story

My mom and I have always been close, always had a special relationship. On September 2 I got a call that forever changed my life. My mom had collapsed at church and was being taken via ambulance to the hospital. A few hours later I got another call, this time my best friend telling me how serious things were. Within three hours my coworkers had me on a plane (at zero cost to me!) and by 6 pm that night I was at my mom's side.

After three days in the ICU it was determined that because of how long her brain had gone without oxygen, she likely wouldn't wake up. On September 5th we made the most difficult decision to let her go peacefully. It was something she had talked about so we were sure it was what she would have wanted us to do.

My wonderful mother passed peacefully on September 6 at 6:10 am. She is already missed so much.

This blog is my journey through the grieving process. Hopefully that will keep my regular daily blog a little less depressing.

On this blog I will share some of my daily grief emails and also songs, poems and pictures that touch my heart. Hopefully this will help someone, but if nothing else, it helps me.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

New Year Prayer

Ann Voskamp posted this on her facebook today and I just had to share. This is how I feel.

yeah, so the last year left us with some hidden bruises, Lord...... and yet there were still blessings that dressed our wounds.

You held us, when we didn't want to hold on, You loved us, when we couldn't love ourselves, You carried us, when we didn't know how to carry on.

And You pull us near tonight, the first night of the year, and Your Word gently lifts our chins: "The Lord bless you & keep you; the Lord make His face to shine upon you & be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance upon you & give you peace.” Nu.6

You lift Your countenance, Lord, You lift Your face, & You shine right upon our unsure faces & Grace entirely blankets us ....

You lift Your face & look us slow right in the eye, look us full in the face — and looking deep into Your face -- there it is: unwavering peace. And all the unknowns of a new year with all its question-mark-days, undo themselves in the certain peace of Your steadying, holding gaze.