My Story


My mom and I have always been close, always had a special relationship. On September 2 I got a call that forever changed my life. My mom had collapsed at church and was being taken via ambulance to the hospital. A few hours later I got another call, this time my best friend telling me how serious things were. Within three hours my coworkers had me on a plane (at zero cost to me!) and by 6 pm that night I was at my mom's side.

After three days in the ICU it was determined that because of how long her brain had gone without oxygen, she likely wouldn't wake up. On September 5th we made the most difficult decision to let her go peacefully. It was something she had talked about so we were sure it was what she would have wanted us to do.

My wonderful mother passed peacefully on September 6 at 6:10 am. She is already missed so much.

This blog is my journey through the grieving process. Hopefully that will keep my regular daily blog a little less depressing.

On this blog I will share some of my daily grief emails and also songs, poems and pictures that touch my heart. Hopefully this will help someone, but if nothing else, it helps me.
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Sunday, May 3, 2015

Dream Visit?

Its rather frustrating. I feel like I should be more "over it" then I am. I know, I know, it's a process, but it's still frustrating. Makes me want to cry and I don't like doing that because it feels like people will think I am just using mom as a way to get attention. Or like they are thinking I should be done crying by now. It's hard.

The other day one of my facebook friends posted this on my wall. It was well meaning, but it actually hurt. I have had dreams about mom since her death and it just leaves me feeling more lost then before I had it. I feel no connection to mom since I lost her. I like to think that she is watching me, I just wish I could actually feel her.

Posts Facebook for Mother's Day

I will be celebrating my first mother's day without my mom here. One thing I want to do is remember what an amazing woman she was. Can each of my friends and family do me a favor? Send me a message, or comment on this post with a memory of Lynn. I would love any kind. Funny stories, sweet stories, anything. I just want to put them all together and use them to share with my girls. If you don't want your name shared, let me know. I am planning to post them on Blogging through my grief.

Taking me in as one of her own, I will always be extremely grateful for what she did, she is forever in my heart! ♡♡ - Melody Holloway-james

Your mom had a beautiful spirit about her! She was fun to talk to - Laura Sullivan

oh my,, I have a 1001 things and more I can say about your Mom ,my Lynnie,, we been best friend for 43 years. but the best thing I can say is that her family was her pride and joy. She loved them,{you all} beyond any thing in this world. She was amazing in so many ways.It would be hard to say JUST one thing about her. I love her and miss her each and every day.love to you all - Sandra Williams

Lynn and I were new close friends working on about 7 months, and knowing her since children, and I had started coming to Salvation Army when we located to Albany, and such a precious quiet friendship one at that. Especially knowing our children were showing signs of togetherness, and we had spoke of God our savior in much detail for my understanding of the many why's of the unspokens in life....We laughed mostly for smiles to overcame the tears, and I so miss her as so many do, for there were not enough time spent here to continue to adore her in so many ways, always amazed by the many gracious things she had done for others with such a beautiful heart. I can only continue to love her as she with the many angels, and our savior at her side smiling, looking over her loving family, and friends reassuring us of her continual love.......love you always..... - Eve Jordan

She was pretty much a second mom. Its gonna be hard not being able to introduce Raelyn to her. I miss Lynn Marie Spalinger Schalliglike crazy!! - Kimberly Trask

My wonderful friend, never judged me, scolded me when I needed it but always, always, always loved me for who I am. I miss her so much. I really missed her this last weekend at our tops convention. It would have been so much more fun with my partner in mischeviousness. Love to all of you. - Robin McConnell

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

A Birthday Request

When I requested that friends update their profile picture to a flower for mom's birthday, the response was overwhelming. 34 Likes, 10 comments and the messages below:

I learned a tough lesson years ago... I knew this lady who worked at the library here. She had a heart defect. Knowing she might have an unexpected end to her life at any time, she chose to celebrate her birthday every year with as much fanfare as possible. She worked in the kids dept. so that made it better. I never liked to celebrate my birthday, and viewed it as one year closer to old age. When I learned about her heart issue it really made me change my view. Now I look forward to my birthday every year. When I worked with my kindergarten class I made a whole day of it, cupcakes included! When she died, as expected, unexpectedly. It really made me take stock of my life. We need to live life to its fullest. Regardless of how short/long it may be. I promise the first year of your mom being gone will be hard. But I know every step you take each day will make her proud! Love you girl! - Ginny Storey-Mosley

she has been on my mind sooo much,, I miss her to much for words,, ,, Lynnie,, you were my best friend for 43 wonderful years , We did alot to gether , I just wish we had more time to do all things things we planned to do,, but dont you worry my sweet girl,, we will have all the time in the world when we met in heaven,, I love you ,Lynn,,,,, - Auntie Sandy

I had a dream about her the other night and it was kind of weird. She was at our TOPS meeting and she was beautiful and very slim. She has always been beautiful to me and I am pretty sure she was letting me know that she was ok. It gave me some inspiration to get back on my program and lose this weight. I miss her so very much. Its hard to lose a friend of 20 plus years. I love you my sweet and wonderful friend. I hope your beautiful birthday in heaven was indeed that, beautiful! - Robin McConnell 

Monday, March 2, 2015

Facebook Memories

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Sandra Williams love you Betsy,missing her too,so much!!!!!
Sara Struminski · 2 mutual friends
She was such an amazing person and opened her home and heart to anyone and every one. I remember going there just to chat and visit for a few cause she always knew the right thing to say. I should have done it more... hope you and your family are doing well. Tell colleen I say hello
Robin McConnell I know you were her best friend for so long Sandie, and she spoke of you fondly so often. I too am missing her in the worst way. I loved her so much as a sister and best friend. I feel like there is a hole in my heart and I'm afraid to be close to anyone again. It hurts too much to lose them.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

A Song For Mom

Melody Holloway-james uploaded a new video.
Miss you, I sang this song with you and family in my heart, always thinking of you.
Kimberly Trask and Sabrina White like this.
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Betsy Hart beautiful. I miss her so very much! cry emoticon
Kimberly Trask I miss her too! I still think about her every day
Betsy Hart
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Saturday, October 11, 2014

Facebook Posts

Quiet nights make me miss you the most.
When the world starts slowing down and the girls are asleep.
I had a dream that they were going to delete your profile.
I almost called Betsy to yell at her about it.
We miss you.
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Betsy Hart You can always call me!

I sure miss my mommy tonight
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Kimberly Trask heart emoticon I miss her too!!
Leslie Seeley Souders I ;miss her a lot, too. She was a great friend.
Rhonda Lloyd What good memories you have. God bless you!
Analise Schallig heart emoticon Love you Betsy!
Tabi Corbett I am so glad she was there that day!!
Sylvia Brodin McCaw I'm sorry Betsy. My mom passed 2 + years ago and I miss her terribly. It does get better but u will always miss her.
Eve Jordan I miss my dear friend and love you Betsy, sending my love your way....
Robin McConnell I will always miss and never forget her
Becky Weiss Praying for your hurting heart. I sure enjoyed visiting with you at the retreat. You are a precious lady!
Diana Morrell Trimmer · 26 mutual friends
She is missed by everyone who knew her.
I keep seeing things that would be so you.
Walmart has another ghost drinking "rootbeer" shirt and I almost texted you about it.
Our mondays feel like it wasn't enough now.
I miss hearing about your day and watching your soaps and the chew.
Or just talking about how everyone was.
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Betsy Hart If possible, I think I miss her more now... frown emoticon
Kendra Trask I'm sorry. frown emoticon
I love you Betsy.

Betsy Hart its okay. Gonna be a long hard process.

Mommy I thought of you a lot today. We were joking at work about you. I'm not sure the girls at work understand my humor, but it is a good way to keep from crying at work... cant' say the same on my drives home. I so miss our phone calls. Even though sometimes I just "mmmhhhmmmed" along, I miss them!
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Kimberly Trask Betsy. I was driving home today and started talking to Lynn and it hasn't rained for quite a while in the evening but I looked over and seen this.

seeing my girls arguing about how many tic tacs they get reminds me of Lynn. Gosh how I miss her this morning!

🎃 Halloween is coming up soon and all I can think about is how you would dress up and hand out pencils ðŸ˜‚ but we always made sure to go say hi!  and let's be honest half the time we would end up there at the end of the night any way! ðŸ˜˜
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Betsy Hart Don't forget her anytime of year jack-o-lantern shirt!
Kimberly Trask Haha. Omg. I was just remembering her pencils the other day

Betsy, I think this is why your mom ( Lynn ) loved to sing so much.
You and 3 others like this.

I love you and miss you and I know it is wrong of me to think this but god was a little selfish calling you home so soon.
There is so much love missing in our days now, all that is left is a hurting lull that can't be filled.
Sure it will get easier someday but the pain will still be in everyones heart no matter how much time passes.
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Betsy Hart You said it perfectly. I love you Kendra. xoxo If you need to talk, you have my number


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Peggy Birkinbine Beautiful picture Betsy.
Rhonda Lloyd Such a sweet memory!
Robin McConnell I so love this picture of you 2. Happy Mommy's Day Betsy.
Cathy Peterson Marsh Baker Missing your mom