My Story


My mom and I have always been close, always had a special relationship. On September 2 I got a call that forever changed my life. My mom had collapsed at church and was being taken via ambulance to the hospital. A few hours later I got another call, this time my best friend telling me how serious things were. Within three hours my coworkers had me on a plane (at zero cost to me!) and by 6 pm that night I was at my mom's side.

After three days in the ICU it was determined that because of how long her brain had gone without oxygen, she likely wouldn't wake up. On September 5th we made the most difficult decision to let her go peacefully. It was something she had talked about so we were sure it was what she would have wanted us to do.

My wonderful mother passed peacefully on September 6 at 6:10 am. She is already missed so much.

This blog is my journey through the grieving process. Hopefully that will keep my regular daily blog a little less depressing.

On this blog I will share some of my daily grief emails and also songs, poems and pictures that touch my heart. Hopefully this will help someone, but if nothing else, it helps me.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Dr Grief...

Dear Grief,

YOU SUCK!
I hate how unexpected your stages are.
I hate that I still randomly cry and have no real "reason" for it.
I hate how I feel guilty when I haven't cried in awhile.
I just hate you. I hate that I have to go through this at all.

Life isn't fair at all. Sometimes all I want is one more hug, one more kiss.
One more time for her to be able to tell me she loves me. I miss the sound of her voice.
I would give almost anything to be able to pick up the phone and hear your voice on the other end. Hopefully I never forget that sound.
I miss the grace with which she dealt with her mom. That woman can be beyond infuriating but you handled her and made her feel listened to.

Grief, I might hate you, but I know you are a necessary evil. I'm glad I'm not alone in dealing with you.

Signed,
Betsy, the grieving daughter
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